morning, cat! long time no hear. remember when we went in the forest? I think I forgot something there. I can’t recall what, but it’s been driving me crazy. i thought the feeling would go away with time, but I dream about it. i dream about a hole. at night I try to figure out its shape, but every time I get close the edges of it start moving, vibrating. If i stare long enough I swear I start seeing my reflection in it. 

do you think you could go and find it for me, cat? i would go myself but I made this promise to the sea. 

a deer at sea. isn’t that so silly, cat?

each time I try to catch what I’m thinking I’m already onto the next thing. I think I’ll take a vow of silence. these words that come out of my mouth, they aren’t mine. i think somebody put them there and now they’re trying to escape.<br> i tried to hold them in but they filled me up to the brim. Now I spill them everywhere. 

remember when your sink faucet had a little hole in it that would spray water in the wrong direction when you opened it? 

how big would you reckon a hole like that would be on a deer?<br> the size of a head? the size of a heart?